Shower Epiphany: Finally Feeling the Remaining Shackle Give Way

Woke up at 5 am and could not sleep again. That's ok since I had more than 6 hours of sleep and a clear and determined mind as if all my chaotic thoughts became aligned and drove chaos into one direct way.

I wont omit that Gladwell's book has not come in the right moment just like his other book drove me to question everything. This book answers the last remnants of doubt and confusion and releases my inhibition to take that stride forward.

Not only do I feel alive, but I am happy to be living NOW. This time now. A huge change from January, I'm eyeing December like its my bitch. I feel not only capital, but have a raging confidence and burning determination that all those years I felt like a dying battery, giving what remains of my being to a cold and hungry reality, are but a memory or blink of a fading thought. I feel as if Alexander is being channeled within and the world is waiting for my will upon it. I know what I want, how it will be done, and more importantly that it will happen. Best of all I've realized that I've finally discovered what limited me were never my own limitations, but those of others who in macro view do not matter any more and I have no reason to tolerate nor entertain. If my intentions are noble and true and beyond selfish, cruel, and manipulative then why must I continue to hold doubt that there are those mistreated by those who ideals were not so and be held by their hinderence or fears of the abused? If you can not tell who I am and what I embody the sorry, but you miss out. There are good and magnificent people out there and you will just miss out on me.

Tough, but sorry.

If you do not understand then you can not limit me. Your opinion is not my hang up, but yours. I have never wronged anyone, its their skewed interpretation that is wrong and it's not on me to even worry. I have carried others so far and have no time to do so anymore.

I have a legacy to build.

I am AWESOME in every way. I'm not boasting. This is my bar held high and I'm going to prove it to the world as fact. Not for ego, but for the pursuit of magnificence itself. This is my goal for life.