Funny, I was going to write about something I can finally go into some details, but......I really don't care. No, really. I don't care. Ever since that moment of peace this week nothing and I mean nothing sticks to me. I have not felt irritation or even anger. It's like being dipped into Teflon, nothing bothers me. It's this peace that just makes me feel comfortable in my own skin and that nothing can bother me unless I choose to let it. I do know it' s going to make my writing suffer a bit, but in truth this feeling of peace is worth more than anything. It's that feeling of being connected to the universe, everyone, you and me and yet, I don't need any vindication.
I've come to realize that this is feel of peace and serenity was only found in No Mind and the only time I felt No Mind is when I'm in a match. Not even sparring, but a full contact match where after months of perpetration I am the closest thing to me in those few minutes where I feel that I'm fighting for my life.
No Mind. Except now. No harm or violence. Flowing peace as if a cool calm river flows through me and keeps me calm and cool.
So, I'm sorry. I'll write again to some worth soon, but I'm too patient and kind and loving to tap into any anger, pain or confusion.
Please forgive me.
I'll do what I can.
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