My bad

Sorry this last post took so long. There was so much to consider and I had the hardest time trying to tackle it. It didn't come to me until just this past Wednesday and I still had trouble writing it. hopefully this will give me some time off mentally and even a few nights of decent sleep.

I don't know what you are getting from this, but this has been rough on me until I finally finished writing. It's forced me to deal with some nasty memories and issues when all I wanted to do was to somehow communicate that I've been walking around feeling UGLY. As bad as it was, this was the best as I can call it. I've only just realized that while I wanted to rip off this heavy mantle that it has been my safety blanket used to give me comfort and protection with chance every now and then to be used to snap a few people.

I'm probably going to reread it to understand and there are a good amount of questions this will bring up. Sadly, I'm filled with more questions and answers and those answers are found by giving a damn, something I'm not doing at the moment.

Well, either way I wanted to apologize for taking so long and I will do my best to have something written here at least once a week for your enjoyment or what not. But I have to ask again, what the hell are you getting from this? you do know there is porn on the net? Really, porn. Oh well. Either way, thanks for reading my silly, stupid madness.