I know I haven't really been writing worth while since the 24th. It's not because it hasn't opened a can of worms or didn't make me deal with a good amount of issues that popped up. In fact I've been questioning my identity, sexuality and behavior. No, I already told you, I'm not coming out of any closet. I've been thinking about the past few years on how I matured sexually and how I'm my first long time partner really imprinted on me more than I can comprehend at the moment. It has given me more questions on who I am and how I behave towards sex, relationships and ultimately sleeping through the night. I know nothing is going to make sense here, but I need to grok a bit more before I can tear myself apart once more.
I'm afraid that I might just tear what is left of my restraint and I'm not one not be without some restraint. So I need to process just a bit more and get a hold of something more substantial before I tear apart my roots again. So I'm asking for a bit of time. I know you are losing some entertainment (that's why you come here, right? You like this crap?), but it's giving me a chance to really look at how deep this is before I just head first.
And when have I disappointed you? Considering that you have not been commenting worth crap, I'm going to error on the side of, "fuck that" than "tell me what to do!?!?"
So give me a week and I'll give you something juicy and thought provoking. If my madness provoke your thoughts at all.
Ok, so......yea.
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