Gained a lb and my body fat jumped from 23.1 to 23.5%. I'm not getting enough sleep sadly. I'm going to have to remedy that. I'm a bit sleep deprived which makes me laugh here in the tomb, but hey you can't fix everything immediately.
Goal today is to run 3 miles tonight, sleep in a bit since I'm running on 5 hours, and finish up my cover letter for one place and send that out to work on another. I'm in a writing streak as some of you can tell, but I'm probably going to start stacking them up considering that I can go into quiet patches. Two posts a week should be ok?
Crazy Doc is tomorrow. I know what's he's going to say. "You live in a toxic environment. You need to get out of there now." Kind of hard when you don't have a steady cash flow. If there's two things I realize being a vagabond it's that the only way people will put up with you is money or help. And somehow I'm starting to to feel my help isn't valued enough to talk to someone into letting me have a patch of carpet in the corner.
Therefore, resumes, cover letters, and just hope.
I hate hope. Hope is useless compared to a given, even if that given is negative. I'd rather know how bad it is instead of hoping. Mayhaps I'm just jaded, but I'm a fucking realist. My days of optimism ended when I was 16 and life started to get hard.
...huh.....minirant. See, going to store that up. Might even get CAt back up. Just random thoughts.
Random thoughts, plans and not trusting hope.
*sigh* When you double post because you're not sleeping enough.....so sad.
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