When Chaos returns and keeps you jumping.....

Sorry good people for the lack of writing so far. Things are getting a bit hectic and I have a few different deadlines coming in and I wanted to knock them out before things go belly up. So not writing until next week. I have much to write and even much to share that I haven't gotten the chance to go into, but things are just a bit too hectic.

If anything I can share with you all that I'm now isolating any last pockets of insanity that still plague me and I'm in the process of removing them permanently. It's funny when you realize what you are finally able to do and how much work it is and at the same time it isn't to do. Things are good overall and I'm more than fine. Any difficulty that I am enduring is with a smile rather than a dark cloud or the Big Black Dog near. Things are good, but just a busy season for me.

SO please hold hope. I shall share more soon. Just need to handle this and then I'll come back.

Peace and Love, please be good to each other.

Putting One Foot in front of the Other

Just took my stats. Being the first month in, I know that I won't see much in body fat change or visual change to my body. Yet taking body measurements one can devise how much of a change a month's worth of work can do.

Mind you, in four weeks I've basically restarted running after a four month hiatus and I've included 4.0 mile runs after realizing that I can physically endure 3.5 miles. Starting out running again you see any benefits until a month in. Your body is busy changing to stimulus (i.e. exercise) and it does not gain any positive change until it finally hits homeostasis. That was this week for me as I burned through my times for 3.01 mile and 4 mile run. I'm still averaging 235 lbs. I'm still moving about in 23% body fat. The only change is that I'm now physically able to push myself harder then I was able to before. This is going to fuel alot of change in the second and third month.

So looking over my body measurements from August and just now I can see that over all my weight went up due to increase of lean muscle mass yet my body fat percentage continues in the 23%. Overall areas where I've lost in mm is in the chest (-2.3 mm), mid abdominal (-3.8 mm), waist (-1.3), thighs (-1.9 mm both), and calves (-0.6 both) while increasing Lft Bicep (+0.6) and forearms (+1.3 both) while neck remains at (40.6 mm) and Rht bicep at (36.83 mm).

So so far, I've lost mm in areas where I would carry body fat while increasing in areas that usually are not worked as much i.e. left arm. Not bad. Pretty good. Also my resting heart rate averages at 52 bpm from 56 bpm. Hopefully I can get it back down to 48 where I had it when I ran like a refined spitting camel.

I'm going to continue to veg until Monday where I put in more work again. Overall goals are to work my runs for lesser time and increase suspension work with some core work on the third day. Big goals.

So....yea....this. Figure I should share.

So...yay me.

Heh....figured that I might as well use that whole degree thing.

.....the hardest part is going to be to continue. To not give up and go back to start. To keep working and continue to get myself to where I want to be. In other words, to not quit on me. To not stop in apathy and allow my hard work to go sallow.

I have to keep believing in me and to make myself focus.

I have to try.